Married Life

I thought I would write something down about married life, and what it means to me.

As I wrote in my profile I am in a long term relationship with my boyfriend. I know some people might say well how do you know what married life is like. Well I feel like I am married to my "husband".
After being with him for over 9years and knowing him for 15yrs. I just feel like I know him as well as I know myself.

But that is what married life means to me, It means to know someone for what they are and who they are and not try to change them. I excepted his emotional bag and he excepted mine. I feel like that is one of the main ways you know you are post to be with someone. You take them through all the good and bad. That and I feel like I don't have to hide anything from him. I am free to be my crazy self and I don't feel like he judges me. He has never in all the time of knowing him, he has never tried to change me or want me to change. And I feel the same why about him.

But don't get me wrong there are days oh my there are those days.But I enjoy those too. 

Crazy thought

I SAW THIS POST ON MY FRIENDS FACEBOOK  PAGE AND I WANT TO SEE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THOUGHT ABOUT IT.

WHY IS IT THAT TEACHERS ARE LOSING THERE JOBS. BECAUSE WE DON'T HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO PAY THEM.BUT YET WE HAVE ENOUGH MONEY TO BILL COMPANIES OUT THAT PUT THERE SELVES IN THE HOLE.


DO YOU THINK THIS IS RIGHT? AND DO YOU THINK TEACHERS SHOULD BE PAID MORE?

When is it going to be me.

I am not posting this to hurt my friends or anything but I need to get this out. I understand some of my friends problems and I feel for them.

 I just saw that my one friend is pregnant I am happy for them but at the same time I don't even want to talk to them.I am so sad and envies that it isn't me. I have been with my boyfriend for 9years and I love him so much but still we aren't married and he doesn't want to have kids yet. I feel like crap for feeling this way. I try so hard not to let this stuff bother me but it does ever day and it is driving me nuts. I am 27years old I am not getting any younger and he is 28 almost 29 and he still wants to wait.

He says "he wants to wait until we have money" really come on we are never going to have the money it seems. I am so tired of hearing that. I understand that we don't have money and I agree with him on that but at the same time. It still hurts I want to be a mom so bad. I thought by my age now I would have a child and be married. GUESS I WAS WRONG. I just want to cry. I love him so much but you would think that he would see how much it is killing me not to be married and to have lived together for 9yrs. That and I want a baby. And right now i hate everyone that is. Well not really I love my friends and I am happy for them but come on. PLEASE if there is a god, help me out with this. I don't know what else I can do.

If anyone has any ideas that can help me please feel free to leave me a comment.