When is it going to be me.

I am not posting this to hurt my friends or anything but I need to get this out. I understand some of my friends problems and I feel for them.

 I just saw that my one friend is pregnant I am happy for them but at the same time I don't even want to talk to them.I am so sad and envies that it isn't me. I have been with my boyfriend for 9years and I love him so much but still we aren't married and he doesn't want to have kids yet. I feel like crap for feeling this way. I try so hard not to let this stuff bother me but it does ever day and it is driving me nuts. I am 27years old I am not getting any younger and he is 28 almost 29 and he still wants to wait.

He says "he wants to wait until we have money" really come on we are never going to have the money it seems. I am so tired of hearing that. I understand that we don't have money and I agree with him on that but at the same time. It still hurts I want to be a mom so bad. I thought by my age now I would have a child and be married. GUESS I WAS WRONG. I just want to cry. I love him so much but you would think that he would see how much it is killing me not to be married and to have lived together for 9yrs. That and I want a baby. And right now i hate everyone that is. Well not really I love my friends and I am happy for them but come on. PLEASE if there is a god, help me out with this. I don't know what else I can do.

If anyone has any ideas that can help me please feel free to leave me a comment.